Today has been a learning day for me. First all, I began taking the Chantix (stop smoking aide) about 2 months ago. Was working fabulous. Well, prescription is gone and about 2 days later I begin feeling so unmotivated its not funny and the inside of my body feels like it is doing the jitterbug about a hundred miles per minute and getting depressed. Being the weekend, I made it through...called doc first thing this morning. I go in this afternoon and am told I am having withdrawl symptoms really bad. I mean come on....I knew tobacco was addictive, but not like alcohol or drugs. Seems that some people (me being one of the lucky ones) go through the same types of emotions and physical withdrawl that alcoholics and drug addicts do. So Doc recommends I continue taking the chantix for another month; because believe me,I am so ready to pick up a cigarette and just make these feelings all go away and say forget about the benefits. So thats where I stand on not smoking. I am going to beat this addiction (sure sounds funny to actually be saying it like that) if its the last thing I do.
At the doctor I also found out that I have gained 10 pounds in the last 2 months. Pretty ridiculous and out of this world. The thing is that I am not snacking in place of the cigarettes. I did the first week, licorice and cookies...but I know I have a weight problem and said no way. So, I bought bananas, oranges, celery, and so on. I also took my COKE away from me...now that is an addiction (by the way its the Coke that you buy in a can or bottle at the store....not the other stuff) and have been drinking tea, coffee and water. So anyhow, the Doc ordered blood work to see if everything is how it should be; she is suspecting my thyroid is not working properly. Whatever that is...have to do some research.
Got home here and checked the mail; low and behold my father has sent me an e-mail all about bananas and how beneficial they really are. A few of the things that the natural vitamins and sugars do is help with depression, lesson nicotine withdrawls, help with PMS and just all kinds of other stuff. What really made me laugh was the fact that for the last three nights I have not had my snack banana. Do you really think it could have really been helping and my body is screaming...GIVE ME BACK MY BANNANA YOU CRAZY FOOL; DON'T YOU KNOW IT IS HELPING FIGHT THE NICOTINE WITHDRAWALS!!!!
So now I have revealed some of my "problems" and actually feel a tad bit better have released some "rockin" vibes as my friend calls them. I feel I have a lot of bumps and mountains to get over the remainder of this year. I have got to take control and loose a ton of weight, continue to stop smoking and well just other stuff so hope you don't mind if I vent here now and then. Just ask that you stop by and visit and even if you do not read...leave a comment now and then and encourage in various ways. Thanks everyone.